What would you do?

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I hate it that I have to fake a smile at you. I don't like it that I have to walk past people and act as if nothing is wrong.

I've always been mediocre. Never excelled at anything I did, mainly because I don't really have a talent. Oh well, a life of mediocrity does have its advantages yea I guess. Just when you've put in effort and all you get is plain average, how?

The things that I say to people to perk them up and stuff, it doesn't work on me. Its like in books or movies where there's a guy who's successful at say being a family consultant, and his family is in tatters. I'm kinda like that, because I have no effect on myself. Smacks of hypocrisy yea?

And I don't know what is it with me now. There's nobody, because almost everyone has a morning paper tomorrow or maybe in a few hours time.

Reading through my past entries, I realised almost every point in my posts have double meanings.

Life's fucked, mull over it and get over it? (Who knows?)